Category: Eating Disorder
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Bleh Week (I Miss My Sweet Girl)
Photo: Mine -22 May 2025 (minutes after I let my sweet girl go in peace) This week has been kind of weird, so I’m thankful for a day without triggers. I did have an appointment with a surgeon on Monday, but was able to chill out after that. I’ll have…
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Really Struggling
Photo: mine I’m really struggling to feel worth the effort of bothering with any of this stuff any longer. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to be near food. I don’t care what happens to me. I won’t actively do myself in, but if I got sick enough…
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The Summer Of 1981- The Starvation Pact & Understanding Anorexia’s Mindset
Photo: mine I was so excited to be working at a summer camp associated with the church I grew up in for the second summer in a row. I’d been a camper there for 7 summers for week long sessions, and the idea of 3 whole months, working in the…
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I’m So Tired Of All Of This; It’s Hard To Eat In This Body
Image- general online search I don’t know how to do this. There is no interest in food- and not just my eating disorder ‘head’. Physically, nothing sounds good. I have stuff here that I “should” like, but there’s no interest in eating it. I’ve been forcing food that seems “normal”…
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When Therapists Cause Way More Harm Than They Help
Image: Adobe Royalty-free stock images It’s hard to even comprehend how someone who is supposed to be a therapist can treat people like street garbage when they know their history of previous trauma. It’s having someone find out what will hurt the most, and then do that. In the 20…
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Figuring Out Food Intake With Volume Issues
Photo: Adobe Stock I’m working on a way to get enough protein in, as well as more fruits and veggies. When I eat protein (generally dairy of some kind), it has to be OK for my kidneys and gout. That means meat, poultry, and fish/seafood are very limited. Spirulina, a…
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Growing Up With A Therapy Stigma… and Then I Was Shipped to The Psych Joint
Photo- online general search. When I was shipped off to the nut house at 18, my mom was horrified. She thought for sure they’d turn me into some kind of cult member. I’m glad I was able to see the value in therapy when I left home- and had NO…
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That Time When I Wondered Why I’m Still Alive
Image: general online search; not my image. Today is one of “those days” when everything seems to trigger a round of crying. I’m struggling physically with food and fluid intake, which makes everything else worse. I’m super protective of any sleep I get. Most people with eating disorders have some…
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Online Eating Disorder Recovery Help
Image- general online search I started looking into online eating disorder support options a couple of years ago when it seemed that my therapist was only a part time social contact person, and then only when it was convenient for her. I didn’t expect constant contact, but wasn’t even getting…
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Have I Gotten Anything Right Yet?
Photo: mine It’s been nearly a year since things with my former eating disorder ‘therapist’ went far enough down the tubes to feel like therapy, such as it was, was over. Nobody had asked about my intake for a couple of years, so it seemed like it didn’t really matter…
