Category: Trauma
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Tired Of Waking Up In This Body, But Can’t Get Weight Off
Photo- mine I’m not suicidal, so don’t alert the online mind police. There’s a difference between wanting to die and being tired of this excuse of a life. I’m in the latter category. I’ve spent the last 22 years on disability, and it’s just getting to be a tiresome and…
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Well, I Tried Not Tracking Every Thing I Ate
Photo- mine Well, I tried a week of not tracking everything, and had NO idea if I was getting enough calories in. I was tracking carbs, protein, and sodium. But I didn’t know if it was getting enough calories. My internal calorie calculator said no… I wasn’t eating enough. So,…
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What Kind Of Parents Restrict Food From Their Kid?
Image- Shutterstock royalty free In general, my folks were good people. They weren’t perfect, but they weren’t psychos by a long shot. My dad was a great dad, but when it came to appearances, I had to buck up. Mom was broken and tried her best. I think she did…
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Struggling Without The NG Tube For Fluids
Photo- mine Except for a month and a few odd days here and there, I had a NG tube to ensure enough fluid intake to protect my kidneys for the last 41 months, changing it out every 4-6 weeks as needed. It was only supposed to be in for the…
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It’s Been A ‘Bleh’ Couple Of Weeks
Image- online search The past couple of weeks have been exhausting for no good reason. My activity level essentially never changes with being housebound, but I’ve not felt great. With the colon cancer screening fails, that’s a bit unnerving, but the main areas of discomfort aren’t located in the iffy…
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Getting My Spiritual Life In Order
Photo- mine I’m not a ‘religioius’ person. Organized religion has become associated with hate, and I can’t ‘do’ that. I was raised in a church way back when they were still fairly inert when it came to discussing social issues. I had a good experience at church during my entire…
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Waves of Grief and Anger
Photo: Mine Even though I fully understand that the manipulation and emotional control measures used by my ex-therapist is her pathological shit, it still deeply impacted me. She doesn’t seem to feel remorse about much, and sent me a message saying she hoped i didn’t turn all of the crap…
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Birthdays With An Eating Disorder
Photo- mine Birthdays (or any holiday or gatherings around food) are painful for people with eating disorders. I’d hoped to do better this year, but fell short. The ‘plan’ was to order something I wanted without regards to the nutritional information (calories and macros in particular), but it didn’t quite…
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Eating Disorders & Age
Photo- mine When I first was diagnosed with anorexia in 1981, it was thought that eating disorders were something that only impacted teens and those in their early 20s. That is absolutely NOT accurate. More and more women AND men, from all backgrounds, socioeconomic levels, and ages are being diagnosed…
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I Saw My Dietician Today- My Head Is Changing! *insert happy dance*
Photo- mine (and blurry) My dietician asked me something today, and I hadn’t even realized that I’ve been doing it for about 6-8 months. She asked if I still freaked out about having to eat X, Y, or Z, but knew that I needed to do it because it was…
