Category: Eating Disorder
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Doing The Opposite Of What My ‘Head’ Says
Photo: Mine, lychees This is so hard. I’ve never known “normal” eating, and now have the Ex-T’s “food rules” to undo as well. The entire idea of restrictive eating disorder therapy to undo the restrictive eating disorder is NOT to have food rules (other than those I have to deal…
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Returning to The University and Ending Up In A Coma
Photo: online search from capefoxfcg. com After a great six weeks working as a cabin counselor at my favorite camp, I had to face returning to the University of Illinois. I wanted to go back, but I didn’t realize how unprepared I was. My mom had also been diagnosed with…
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Food At My House While Growing Up
Photo: online search My folks were always weight conscious, to the point of extreme dieting. Dad didn’t have a weight problem, but thought he did if his trousers felt a bit snug. Mom was ‘normal’, and not fat, but always on some kind of diet or going to some diet…
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My First Hospitalization for Bulimarexia & Depression
Photo: mine When I returned to the University of Illinois after the winter break, I limped through emotionally, and things quickly became critical. I was still freaked out about being on academic probation (not in my perfectionistic vocabulary), and very depressed. I thought I was falling everything. I wasn’t thin…
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Anorexia and Campus Life
Photo- mine. Being a freshman at a good state university was overwhelming, and made so much worse by my deteriorating physical and mental health. I was also a fairly good student back in my high school, with many college prep and advanced placement classes that I was used to, so…
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How I Got To This Point Part 2: The Summer of Anorexia
Photo- El Arroyo in Austin, TX online photo The summer before I started at the University of Illinois, I was working my second summer at a church camp I’d gone to as a kid for 7 summers (week long sessions). I loved that camp, and still consider it to be…
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How I Got To This Point Part 1: Childhood Diets
Photo: mine; me, age 5 1/2 (summer before diet bribes started) I’ve been a problem eater since birth. I was put up for adoption, and before I could be placed in my parents’ home, I spent 9 days in the hospital in 2 cities because I didn’t like the hospital…
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Chronic Medical Complications From Restrictive Eating Disorders
Photo: mine Decades of eating disorders have wreaked havoc on my body. It’s also impacted other areas, but for this post, I’ll be focusing on the medical issues. For this post, I’m just going to focus on what I’ve experienced. I will do another post on general complications. IF you…
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OK. Time to Start DOING Something
Photo: mine OK, so it’s time to start doing things to move forward. I won’t lie- I’m not even sure where to start, but I know that I have to come up with something that will work for me, and doesn’t seem forced (other than making sure I eat what…
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General Thoughts About Moving Forward After Ex-Therapist
There were never any consistent “lessons” with Ex-T (ex-therapist)- I knew her basic beliefs about eating disorders, but that’s it. She mentioned the importance of what I tell myself about myself-and that the brain hangs on to all of that, but that was about the extent of it. I no…
