Category: Eating Disorder
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Birthdays With An Eating Disorder
Photo- mine Birthdays (or any holiday or gatherings around food) are painful for people with eating disorders. I’d hoped to do better this year, but fell short. The ‘plan’ was to order something I wanted without regards to the nutritional information (calories and macros in particular), but it didn’t quite…
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Eating Disorders & Age
Photo- mine When I first was diagnosed with anorexia in 1981, it was thought that eating disorders were something that only impacted teens and those in their early 20s. That is absolutely NOT accurate. More and more women AND men, from all backgrounds, socioeconomic levels, and ages are being diagnosed…
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I Saw My Dietician Today- My Head Is Changing! *insert happy dance*
Photo- mine (and blurry) My dietician asked me something today, and I hadn’t even realized that I’ve been doing it for about 6-8 months. She asked if I still freaked out about having to eat X, Y, or Z, but knew that I needed to do it because it was…
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It Started Out Pretty Well Before the Breadcrumbing
Photo- mine, turkey tail mushrooms I have to be fair about how ‘therapy’ was – not just the bad ending. It started out well. I wasn’t in good shape, after not eating solid food for about a week, and in the middle of ’round 2′ in 2 years of losing…
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Grieving Hope of Recovery With Ex-Therapist
Photo- mine It might sound weird to grieve for something that never happened. But I’d dreamed of getting well with someone who seemed to have figured out how to get the eating disorder voice to go quiet for good. She has helped a lot of people, but it seems that…
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When Bingeing Is Self-Preservation: Extreme Hunger
Image- Texas Monthly issue on BBQ (not sure which restaurant this is from) For those who don’t understand the body’s primary goal of keeping us alive, bingeing might not make a lot of sense. But when someone has been restricting for any period of time, if the body senses that…
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When ‘Self-Worth’ Therapist Seems To See Me As Disposable
Photo- mine A big part of the eating disorder therapy with my now ex-therapist was based on increasing self worth. There were a lot of terms of endearment and declarations that I was loved. But words are really, really cheap when they’re not followed up with actions. I feel even…
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Figuring Out Little Steps To Quiet the Eating Disorder “Voice”
PHOTO- mine; window in the kitchen at my childhood home. Designed by Tom Heflin and made by Frank Hautkamp It is so hard to justify eating when I see what is in the mirror. Logically, I know that food is fuel, but for as long as I can remember, it…
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Why Did It Take So Long To Get Out of A Therapy Relationship That Wasn’t Working ?
Photo- mine I’ve written about it taking nearly 3 years before I ended therapy with my online eating disorder therapist AFTER I felt something ‘off’. It’s been so difficult to leave- partly because I’m out $33K USD, and am not much better off than I was when I started- so…
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Trauma and Eating Disorders
Photo: mine- it was the only footprint in the dry river bed… where did it come from? There are plenty of articles and videos about the impact of trauma on the development of eating disorders. The attack on self-worth goes deep. For some, ‘disappearing’ is a response to unwanted contact…
