Category: Eating Disorder Recovery ‘Alone’
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Bleh Week (I Miss My Sweet Girl)
Photo: Mine -22 May 2025 (minutes after I let my sweet girl go in peace) This week has been kind of weird, so I’m thankful for a day without triggers. I did have an appointment with a surgeon on Monday, but was able to chill out after that. I’ll have…
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Fundamentals of Disassociation: DID
Photo: mine There are few good examples of disassociation in TV or movies, and most of those involve people who are sociopathic and homicidal. Those are the very much exceptions to those who have the more extreme form of disassociation, DID, or dissociative identity disorder (formerly known as multiple personality…
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My Head Is Shifting & It’s Not Good
Photo: Mine I’m not drowning, but I know there’s been a shift about getting back to an earlier weight that wasn’t my goal, but it’d ‘do’ for now. I gained a lot of muscle when I started pushing up calories back in 2023 (Autumn) after discussing it with my dietician…
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Uneventful Few Days, Thank God.
Photo: mine This roller coaster of emotions as I work through the therapy trauma as well as trying not to lose too much ground on the recovery front is exhausting, so having a few days without anything chaotic going on has been a welcome relief. I had a few routine…
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Really Struggling
Photo: mine I’m really struggling to feel worth the effort of bothering with any of this stuff any longer. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to be near food. I don’t care what happens to me. I won’t actively do myself in, but if I got sick enough…
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The Summer Of 1981- The Starvation Pact & Understanding Anorexia’s Mindset
Photo: mine I was so excited to be working at a summer camp associated with the church I grew up in for the second summer in a row. I’d been a camper there for 7 summers for week long sessions, and the idea of 3 whole months, working in the…
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Why Am I Still Bloating After Eating? ED or Colon Polyp Changes?
Photo: mine My medical situation is complicated. I have various diseases and disorders which can make figuring out symptoms difficult. And I seem to have a list of diagnoses that makes me a favorite patient to send to various consultants, so nobody knows what the other guy/gal is doing. It…
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I’m So Tired Of All Of This; It’s Hard To Eat In This Body
Image- general online search I don’t know how to do this. There is no interest in food- and not just my eating disorder ‘head’. Physically, nothing sounds good. I have stuff here that I “should” like, but there’s no interest in eating it. I’ve been forcing food that seems “normal”…
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When Therapists Cause Way More Harm Than They Help
Image: Adobe Royalty-free stock images It’s hard to even comprehend how someone who is supposed to be a therapist can treat people like street garbage when they know their history of previous trauma. It’s having someone find out what will hurt the most, and then do that. In the 20…
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Growing Up With A Therapy Stigma… and Then I Was Shipped to The Psych Joint
Photo- online general search. When I was shipped off to the nut house at 18, my mom was horrified. She thought for sure they’d turn me into some kind of cult member. I’m glad I was able to see the value in therapy when I left home- and had NO…
